NoBlood:AllHeart;AyyKayEll.
i dont even know where to start. no matter how hurt deep down i was by her. i REALLY love that girl. i counted on her to be there. she was my support beam.
i came to realize that she really didnt care, but the messages where she said she did still make me smile.
i have had so many memmories with this girl and i wouldnt want to have them with anyone else. i wouldnt do anything differently.
i wouldn’t want any different “big sister” for everyone has thier faults. i loved hers.
its hart to look back on her saying her never wanting to loose me again and everything i meant to her when she just walked away .
im happy without her but theres not a day i dont miss her. i would do anything for her regardless the feeling isnt the same.
she is such a hardheaded little girl and in my eyes she does some stupid things. and no man shall ever hurt her or else ill be on his ass. she deserves alot more than she gets and all i want is to see her happy, and if that means without me be it. i dont care what it takes.
that pretty much sums up my rant.
i love you Alexis Kristina Lastfogel with all my fucking heart regardless of everything thats happend. i will ALWAYS be here. goodnight and as much as id like to say for now, ill say goodbye, because forever is what you want <3
fuck all of you. im moving to illinois now . that s my cool story of the night. and my version o a good night.
Boys.
to kevin; thank you so much for everything youve put me through. you are the first boy ive wanted to date since coltan and was so hurt to leave. you call me a slut . and a cow . i dont care what you say i am fucking over you . but what you say to me FUCKING HURTS.
to brad; i love you so much but i cant trust anyone anymore . i wont be happy with any one , any guy, even someone i love so much as dearly as you. and even though we
may be dating . i know im breaking your heart . and that is BREAKING MY HEART.
to kolten; you dont smoke , you dont drink, you’re a virgin. and you have had obe girlfriend you are nothing like me . i secretly envy who you are and wish to have the strength to be like you. for months youve said you like me and right when i start to develope strong feelings for you you
walk away. you of all nice guys RIPPED MY HEART OUT .not on purpose though the ironic part is when i found out you weren over your ex was the night i was going to tell you im finally ready for a relahionship. funny how shit happends. .
because of my lack of stength to not drink and not misbehave . and the fact that i have no faith and trust in anyone, knowing everyone will walk out , and you cant believe what anyone says, makes me so hurt . i cant take living like this . but i have to . for no one.
